For Mak & Ayah, with Love

IIUM 27th Convocation

10th October 2011

Ayah, Mak,

Terima Kasih atas segalanya.

Terutama dalam mendidik Kakak agar menjadi Muslimah Mu'minah sejati.

Semoga ALlah berkati kalian fiddunya wal aakhirah.

Salam Sayang,

Kakak

2:35 - 2:40

I'm Sorry, My Mistake.

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim.

Have you ever make mistake? If you have not, then you are not human.

More often than not people find themselves being troubled by the feeling of guilt out of the mistakes they've made; big or small, major or little, alike. As a living human being, of which as I speak, I myself am one, would have all the tendencies to fall into misjudgments on things, failure upon a task assigned, wrong interpretation towards somebody and all the accidental, off-thinking, blunt acts.

First and foremost, it's normal. It is a habitual act for man whom by nature is prone to mistakes. Human are not angel. Human are created with such imperfection so they would always acknowledge the Almighty Creator as the Ultimate Perfect Being and recognize their weaknesses as the created.

It's OK to do wrong. After all, people learnt from those unwanted experience of mistakes more effectively compared to other kinds of teachers. Richard Carlson, the writer of the famous "Don't Sweat the Small Stuff" self-improvement book suggests that making peace with our mistakes will make our life stress-free.

Albeit, the problem with our society today is that we have problem to own up our mistakes (in regards to mistakes that affect other people negatively). We had fallen guilty for not being able to put down our guard (ego) to admit the wrong.

What's wrong with owning up your own mistakes? Even if they are not, is it that bad to say sorry? Will you die? Would you become a lesser person just by admitting that you have actually done something wrong? What happen if you apologize? Will it hurt?

Those rhetorical questions may have found you gotten more overwhelmed (if perhaps you are in the dilemma of either to own up and say sorry or keeping quiet and pretend that you are the good guy with no fault and nothing actually had happened) than you were.

One thing that is very clear is that learning only takes place when we acknowledge our mistakes i.e.: own up! Once we admit that we had done wrong, that is when we had the heed to change for the better. If we let the ego to enshroud our conscience, we will never learn from anything. In fact, we are letting our hearts to be rotten by the haughtiness and feeling of self-importance. We lift up our unnecessary pride that makes us a self-centered, lofty, disdainful individuals.

In our daily life, let's look at some possibilities to post own-up effects. What happened if you sincerely and respectfully apologize for the mistakes you've done:

The most agreeable to everyone will be; you would be forgiven (given that your mistake is not a grave one and that it is not the third or forth time) other than able to keep the relationship unkempt.

Secondly and relationally, people will look up on you as you have an honorable character and integrity to humble yourself down and say sorry (even when you are at the higher position with the authority and ability to overlook the mistake as something insignificant).

Thirdly, you are acknowledging that you, like other people around, are prone to mistakes and that gives you a motivation to be a better person.

Why then all the brooding and anxiety? Channel that energy to something more beneficial. Owning up and saying sorry would not cost you anything but give you peace at heart and a sense of worth. As a matter of fact, it brings more good when you know how to apologize and make things up.

Remember: a 'sorry' can change a life! Why not thrive to be happy in an easier, less hassle way? Two words; I'm sorry, My mistake.

ALlahu'alam.

i carry your heart with me

i carry your heart with me(i carry it in
my heart)i am never without it(anywhere
i go you go,my dear; and whatever is done
by only me is your doing,my darling)
i fear
no fate(for you are my fate,my sweet)i want
no world(for beautiful you are my world,my true)
and it's you are whatever a moon has always meant
and whatever a sun will always sing is you

here is the deepest secret nobody knows
(here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud
and the sky of the sky of a tree called life;which grows
higher than the soul can hope or mind can hide)
and this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart

i carry your heart(i carry it in my heart)

By: Edward Estlin Cummings


[Found this while doing revision on 'Stylistic in Poetry' with Nik Izyani and Kak Didi in (IIUM) Library, 22:00:00 April 7, 2011. Fallen in love with its lexical and semantic cohesions (with mine). ;)]

Hadiah

P.s.: Ada air mata yang menyimbah pipi... Sayang kamu!

Sweet... Aren't they?

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim

"A Muslim man can acquire no benefit after Islam greater than a Muslim wife who makes him happy when he looks at her, obeys him when he commands her, and protects him when he is away from her in herself and in his property."

[Reported by An Nasa'i]

It has been narrated by Zaid Ibn Arqam that the Prophet sallallahu alaihi wasallam stated, "Oh Zaid! Be wedded, for your purity will be further increased."

[Dailami: Imam Abu Hanifa]

ALlahua'lam

Getting A Message Across

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim...

Dear Whom-This-May-Concern,

I know you've been a faithful reader here ever since we knew each other though you are not a follower.

One thing I really need you to understand is that things had changed for these past few years. I know you notice them. Please stop all the stalkings. And I beg you to stop all the pretenses too because I'm really not buying them. I had enough of 'saying one thing but means another'. Use all those figures of speech you may but things will never be the same.

You and I both know we are not having so many pep talks like we used to. We have now grown up to be someone so different from who we were.

We are friends. I never despise you. Never. Pray you'll always have a good life, a blessed and a blissful one. InshaALlah. Wishing you well in every good thing you do.

And this note, it never meant any harm. It's never easy for me to be a 'goody two-shoes' kinda person to even my besties. So here I am noting this down for you. Please understand.

May you stay safe and well.

Yours faithfully,
The Less Courageous

ALlahu'alam.

Three words; If you must--

Give
If you must; let go
Nothin’ in this life stays

Whether you like it or not
People leave (or die)
Memories fade

While the clock is still tickin’
Tell ‘em you love ‘em
Why worry when you have all to have and all to give?

It goes for circle;
What you give, you get back
What goes around comes back around

Remember why you are here
And how you are here
And where you are goin’--after--here.

Give--
If you must;
let go--

Juliet

Still feels like the day when you looked straight into her eyes

and said:

“Thou art beautiful
Make me a man
Thou art perfect
Thou complete me”

Juliet,
was she

No more,
Dear Romeo

Romeo O Romeo,
It’s the way you left her
It’s the way you hesitated
It’s when you chose; not her!


Now that everything had changed
No she’s not gonna come back
No it’s not gonna work
No way it will
Anymore
No way


She was your Juliet--

Of wanting to be happy...

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim...

It's been a while since I scribble my thoughts here. Even now I wish to write pages and pages of things that had happened in the past few months [the last entry I posted was in January] but don't think I'm able to do so just yet. [actually, I don't feel like doing it]

Well, had some fun doing this yesterday and I think I really have passion in it (photography). Hope to own one good DSLR in the future inshaALlah. ;)

[Special thanks to Azimah, Aisha, Azza, Aishah, Yana, and Nusantara Photography (Br. Ashraf, our instructor's studio) for this!]

Looking into the future, one thing for sure, life going to be so different soon. I'll be graduating in April then going to start work, pay the debt [pitipitipu!], and have some plan to travel the world too, inshaALlah. A lot of things to do while being young and able. They say; "Seize the day!"

Hmmm... Talking about life, anticipating that I'll be weeping a lot this week. Huhu. Went through hard times alone these days [proving to the world that I'm strong and independent but yet I think I fail] and now things getting harder and harder. Well, that's how we mature...

In Quran, there are many duas including this one that we can say during those hard times;

"Our Lord, grant us from Yourself mercy and prepare for us from our affair right guidance."
[Al Kahfi; QS 3:10]

Amiin, thumma amiin. Hoping that through these ups and downs, He will always be close to my heart no matter what.

Alhamdulillah, had the chance to visit Morocco in mid January for the 5th International Youth Gathering (IYG) organized by Union of NGOs in Islamic World (UNIW) which has its base in Istanbul, Turkey.

Visited some very beautiful places [especially the beaches!] including Casablanca, Rabat, Marrakech, Tangier and Fes. I miss Morocco and all the warm and lovely people; Renata, Ouissal, Khaoula, Wafa, Sevde, Sumeyye, Iman, Hetice, Seyme. Hope they are doing good. Hope we can meet again in Turkey this coming July for the 6th IYG.

And for my family here in Malaysia; including PPIWP, MRC 0809, JBDS, 5th IYG, may ALlah be with us and bless our lives with His Pleasure and Love. And may our ending be 'husnul khatimah' inshaALlah. Having you guys around get me stronger. And this one's for you, with love. :)

ALlahu'alam.

Not knowing

If I could tell you every second that 'iloveyou'
I would

If I could hold your hand and never let go
I would

If I could take you in my arm forever
I would

If I could just sit there, with you, watching the sun went up and down
together, with you, I would

You see, I would, I would

I would--

But then again

A shooting star

She waits to see

She hopes to be

But then again;

Daylight,

Sun's bright

The day stay gray

And she's looking,

wandering

Into the dream

So deep

So steep

Shooting star;

Her wishes,

Her disguise

But then again;

Morn,

Mourn--

NUR

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim

Ya Allah Ya Tuhan kami

Sholawat dan salam mohon dilimpahi

Atas Nabi Muhammad Junjungan kami

Keluarga baginda turut disertai

Sholawat salam himpunan segala lisani

Hadhrat keluasan rahmatMu tak bertepi

Sholawat yang berkatnya kami dikurniai

Pertautan juga bantuan nurani

Dari jasmani Baginda Nabi

Dari hati Baginda Nabi

Dari ruh Baginda Nabi

Dari sir Baginda Nabi

Dari ilmu Baginda Nabi

Dari amal Baginda Nabi

Dari akhlak Baginda Nabi

Dari niat Baginda Nabi

Dari tawajjuh Baginda Nabi

Dari qashad Baginda Nabi

Terus ke jasmani kami

Terus ke hati kami

Terus ke ruh kami

Terus ke sir kami

Terus ke ilmu kami

Terus ke amal kami

Terus ke akhlak kami

Terus ke niat kami

Terus ke tawajjuh kami

Terus ke qashad kami

Serta Kau kembalikanlah Ya Rabbi

Keberkatan sholawat ini

Atas kami, atas keturunan kami,

Atas sahabat kami dan atas penghuni zaman kami

Ya Nur Ya Nur Ya Nur kami pohoni

Agar dijadikan kami satu nur menerangi

Demi haq an-Nur yang Maha Tinggi

اللهم صل على سيدنا محمد النبي الأمي وعلى آله وصحبه وسلم

Amiin, amiin Ya Allah.