I'm Calling U

I'm calling' you
When all my goals, my very soul
Ain't fallin' through
I'm in need of U
The trust in my faith
My tears and my ways is drowning so
I cannot always show it
But don?t doubt my love
I'm callin' U
With all my time and all my fights
In search for the truth
Tryin' to reach U
See the worth of my sweat
My house and my bed
Am lost in sleep
I will not be false in who I am
As long as I breathe
Oh, no, no
I don't need nobody
& I don't fear nobody
I don't call nobody but U
My One & Only
I don't need nobody
& I don't fear nobody
I don't call nobody but U
U all I need in my life
I'm callin' U
When all my joy
And all my love is feelin' good
Cuz it's due to U
See the time of my life
My days and my nights
Oh, it's alright
Cuz at the end of the day
I still got enough for me and my
I'm callin' U
When all my keys
And all my bizz
Runs all so smooth
I'm thankin' U
See the halves in my life
My patience, my wife
With all that I know
Oh, take no more than I deserve
Still need to learn more
Oh, no, no
I don't need nobody
& I don't fear nobody
I don't call nobody but U
My One & Only
I don't need nobody
& I don't fear nobody
I don't call nobody but U
U all I need in my life
Our relationship, so complex
Found U while I was headed straight for hell in quest
You have no one to compare to
‘Cause when I lie to myself nothings hidden from U
I guess I'm thankful
Word on the street is U changed me
It shows in my behaviour
Past present future
Lay it all out
Found my call in your house
And let the whole world know what this love is about
Yo te quiero, te extrano, te olvido
Aunque nunca me has faltado, siempre estas conmigo
Por las veces que he fallado y las heridas tan profundas
Mejor tarde que nunca para pedirte mil disculpas
Estoy gritando callado yo te llamo, te escucho, lo intento
De ti yo me alimento
Cuando el aire que respiro es violento y turbulento
Yo te olvido, te llamo, te siento
Translation:
[I love you, I miss you, I forget you
Even though you never let me down and always are by my side
For all the times I've failed and hurt you deeply
Better later than never to give you a 1000 apologies
I'm shouting silently, callin' you, I'm listening to you, I'm tryin'
You nourish me
When the air that I breathe is violent and turbulent
I'm forgettin' you, I'm callin' you, I'm feelin' you]
Oh, no, no
I don't need nobody
& I don't fear nobody
I don't call nobody but U
My One & Only
I don't need nobody
& I don't fear nobody
I don't call nobody but U…

By: Outlandish

God, I'm calling only U
For U r my hope,
my goal,
my True Love!

I don't wanna fight no more...!

I just don't wanna fight it anymore!

I had enough... of crying and losing...

It's hard and it hurts...

Just let me be...

And so, this is my prayer...

Let it be the best,
for you and for me,
for us,
for the future...

I don't wanna fight no more...!

Raya with Kak Sheena... Will miss you...

Thank you, Mister Chairperson...

Evening everyone!

My story today... Hm... excited huh?! :) I was feeling the same when I was invited to become the emcee for two consecutive AGMs of two organizations in IIUM--Titian Wahyu Project and Intellectual Youth Club.

I was never before a chairperson for any meeting and that I was offered to become the chairperson for two annual grand meetings! What an honour...!:)

Thanks to Kak Dyll and Kak Sarah Ayu for the offer. Both were precious experience that could never be bought by material.

And you know what, after the second AGM that I chaired, I was offered to be the emcee for another AGM this Wednesday, October 15; Taskforce Rakan Muda Annual Grand Meeting.

Notwithstanding, I'll have presentation and hehehe a date on that day... So sorry Nadz, couldn't be your emcee... Good Luck to Melissa. She'll replace me for Rakan Muda's AGM. Have a great experience my dear!:)

Kak Dyll, gambar di bawah ni saje je Naheed 'feature'kan ... Attention-getter... Hehhe:) Jangan marah aaa...

Tunggu Teduh Dulu

Sebuah novel karya Faisal Tehrani. Cukup untuk membawa diri menilai kekuatan mujahadah hati.

Novel ni Naheed pinjam daripada Kak Dyll. Dia yg bersungguh bagi Naheed baca. Naheed sebenarnya tak boleh pegang novel. Once dah start, habis la... Takkan berhenti sampai khatam novel tu. I can even finish a novel as thick as Harry Potter in just a day!

Mula-mula pegang and flipped through the pages, what came to my mind was,
"Ala... ni lebih kurang 'Ayat-Ayat Cinta' je ni..."

At that time I had my impromptu dinner with Kak Dyll. She said that she just bought the novel and it still looked new as if belum bersentuh pun.

"Kak Dyll da baca belum ni?"

"Akak da baca da.. Pinjam ngan kawan.
Ni saje-saje beli buat simpanan.
Bace la... Best tau cite die"

And I was seduced.
Easily..! You know why?

First, I am by nature a novel-lover!:)
Second, cause I know that Faisal Tehrani is one of the prominent young Malaysian novelists, he had written number of books and won various awards.
And third, I was looking for something light but at the same time able to enlighten my dreary days I had that week.
Why was it a dreary week? I couldn't tell. But I can share more or less what I've learnt from this TTD (Tunggu Teduh Dulu) novel.

It is a story about a Muslim woman named Salsabila Fahim, seorang wanita yang mencari teduh tatkala dunianya diburu hujan, ribut, petir, taufan dan kemarau.

Kata Salsabila Fahim, ini cerita kecil,
cerita sederhana, tentang dia lari berteduh
di bangsal di puncak bukit
bersama Kamil dan Lam Ping Hai ketika hujan mula gerimis.

Kata aku, ini perkara besar ,
hal berteduh sementara duga datang mencuba bukan hal main-main.

Kata Teh Sofia, ya,
Kerja Tuhan siapa tahu ?

Kata aku, Tuhan akan menunjukkan
kepada yang mencari. Ya, asal kau mahu
mencari, Dia menunjukkan.

Apa kata kau ?

Kataku;

Salsabila Fahim umpama diri, yang sekejap berlari ke hulu, terkadang menyusur jalan ke hilir mencari teduh. Saat-saat diri berada di tengah indah dunia, terleka, lupa bahawa itu milik Dia.
Namun, bila diri diberi ujian, mehnah dan dugaan, tatkala itu mula mencari teduh, mencari bantuan Tuhan.

Salsabila Fahim seorang yang tabah, tak mudah lentur semangatnya ketika ujian membedil bertalu-talu. Novel ni banyak buat Naheed berfikir dan merenung diri. Seorang sahabiah pernah berkata,

"jangan katakan diri pejuang andai tak kental tanggung ujian"

Naheed tak pernah diuji dengan ujian sehebat yang Salsabila Fahim, atau mungkin pejuang-pejuang lain lalui. Dengan ujian yang sekecil ini pun masih hendak mengeluh, masih cepat untuk berputus asa, masih kurang zikir syukur.

"Tidak ada satu nikmat pun yang ada pada kamu kecuali semuanya dari Allah.. apabila kamu ditimpa bahaya maka kepadaNYA kamu mengadu"
(An-Nahl:53)

"Dan sesungguhnya Kami telah menetapkan kamu (dan memberi kuasa) di bumi dan Kami jadikan untuk kamu padanya (berbagai jalan) penghidupan (supaya kamu bersyukur, tetapi) amatlah sedikit kamu bersyukur. "
(Al Anfal:10)

"Dan Dialah yang menjadikan kamu khalifah di bumi dan meninggikan setengah kamu atas setengahnya yang lain beberapa darjat, kerana Dia hendak menguji kamu pada apa yang telah dikurniakanNya kepada kamu. Sesungguhnya Tuhanmu amatlah cepat azab seksaNya dan sesungguhnya Dia Maha Pengampun, lagi Maha Mengasihani."
(Al An'aam 165)

Ya Allah, pohonku agar Kau kuatkan aku dengan thaliMu. Tetapkan aku istiqamah di atas jalan-Mu.

"...cukuplah ALLAH bagi ku. Tidak ada Ilah selain Dia. Hanya kepadaNya aku bertawakkal. Dan DIA adalah Tuhan yg memiliki 'Arsy yang agung."
(At Taubah:129)